Laying in bed, thinking about my life and how old I already am.
I’m too old for anything.
What is going to happen?
What will become of me?
Time is running through my hands.
I can’t do anything.
I love drawing.
But it won’t get me money.
I’m not talented enough anyway.
Will I ever be able to live my life?
I’m stuck. Stuckstuckstuck.
I don’t even want to get up anymore.
Why am I such a failure?
I can’t. I can’t. I can’t.
I hate myself.
My life is over.
I won’t get to see nice things.
(Start over again and again.)
Oh god, just make it stop. Someone make it stop.
Please!
Ugh, so much this. :/
(via zodiaccity)
For Laura and Phil, because I love them and since it has been Phil’s B-Day some days ago and Laura had a B-Day in April, this was loooong overdue. LADIES, you’re still fabulous. ♥♥
I know, blahblah, boring floating poses, “Think of something new, Sanne!”, but I kinda adore the crap out of this anyway. HERPDERP.
So much for “I don’t wanna draw anymore.” WELL, uuuh…. from now on, I don’t wanna draw anymore. 8I
…the first page is up?
THE FIRST PAGE IS UP!
Special thanks to Doc for being a coding superhero. All my gratitude to everyone who has been so supportive through the set-up and planning stages. I hope you will read and enjoy! c:
I have honestly no idea why I haven’t pimped this here yet. ♥♥
GO AND READ, PEOPLE! It shall be magnificent! <33
So, you know how I said that I made some wrong decisions and how I shouldn’t have followed the art path and all that jazz because it doesn’t seem to get me anywhere, blaaah blaaaah, yaddayadda.
Well. I thought a lot about all of this over the past days and - I won’t fool myself - I’m still nowhere near over it but a thing that came to my mind is that, if I’d been given the chance to start over from some point in my life, I would always pick art again. Without any doubt.
I am by no means a perfect artist. Oh god, absolutely not. I still have so many things to learn. Then again, who is a perfect artist? I don’t believe there’s such a thing at all and even though there are loads of people out there who are far better than me, I always have to think about what people say about my artwork all the time, even people who aren’t into art at all. That it’s lively, full of colours and personality. And that they’re fully convinced that I can go far with it. People don’t say such things for no reason. Why would anyone lie to me?
I still don’t know where to go with my life at this point and I won’t pretend that I’m feeling significantly better than some days ago but… I can’t help but feel that, somewhere in this world, there has to be a place for someone like me.
Good morning, tumblr. I love you. ♥
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This one’s for Sanne. She knows the story behind it, because it’s her story.
This is all you, dear heart. <3
Well, since some people are apparently convinced that I am a strong person inside, a warrior even…
…I feel it’s about time to kick some ass, right?
Still love this, dear heart. And you, of course. You know how much! ♥♥
A little sumthin’ sumthin’ for Sanne, cause she and her blog already invaded my dreams! D:
Her super adorbz OC Holly and my Lucy, cause I think they would get along pretty good.
Alright, m’dear. As it seems, me and my blog should haunt your dreams a little more often in the future. Because if it makes you produce such SUPERFUCKINGAWESOME art, it should be TOTALLY worth it.
Seriously, I wish I had a camera right now so I could take a shot of my big, fat grin that just spread across my entire face after spotting this. I AM AMAZED. Holly looks LOVELY, she’s such a PINK LADY in this, oh WOW. You know what I love. And… AAAAH! LUCY HAD A COMEBACK!? I missed her, dang! <3 And she looks kick-ass as usual. I hope we’ll see her again VERY very soon, because… well. BECAUSE! :D
God, I just love this! Totally brightened my day even further, just when I decided to be less mopey. <33333 HNGGHGHN!
trooperella asked: Oh dear Sanne, I just awoke from one of the strrrraaaaaangest dreams I had in a loooong time and it involved your blog! I don't actually remember how, or what happened or where all that wicked things came from but YOU and YOUR blog where there and I'm pretty sure you played a lead role in the world domination via tumblr. But don't take my sleepy word for it. GOOD MORNING! <3
HFFFFFFHHHFHFHFH. Oh god. Lolzers. :B THAT sounds like something I would totally enjoy and what I would SO do if I had the time.
Wait.
I do have enough time!
One world dominated by yours truly via tumblr!? COMING RIGHT UP! Prepare for loads of rainbows and other silly shit. IT WILL BE MARVELLOUS AND YOU WILL LOVE IT. AND ME. Above all, me. Because I’m a loveable world dominator.
(This is the moment in which you have to throw your rotten vegetables at me, btw.)
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